I’ve always had a back-up plan, ALWAYS. And now I’m without a clue about what to do besides take care of the fam, paint a little, read a little, write a little, play a little. I don’t watch much tv and care not for veggin’ out. I feel like I’m having a touch of the mid-life crisis right now without a life to be in the mid’ of because I never got there. Yet when the rest of the world was grappling with teenmessiness, I was trying to find food and a place to sleep with regularity. I suppose this really is the anxty nonsense people go through when coming to terms with their lives.I’ve never experienced depression, but I have to say that if I could, this would be the most depressing situation to be in: traversing through untold calamities to finally make it to THE goal in my life, only to have it all taken away. Kinda like the Patriots trying to be undefeated – the only difference between me and them is that I don’t have a multi-million dollar contract to bolster my spirits, oh – and I never even have the appearance of cheating coz it’s closely related to that whole lying thing I hate.Guess I’ll go watch the SuperBowl fireworks, it’s kinda crazy out there in the desert tonight. be safe, be strong.