didn’t get it.
The bright side is that I was placed in the running against some amazing applicants. So when I’m ready, I’ll try again.
As most of you know, it’s been a very rough few years for me. Okay, lets call it the nightmare decade. But I am rounding out the last year of my 30’s and looking forward to a grown-up kinda life. I know, many of you are thinking to yourself, “what is that crazy parenting thing this woman dabbles in, if not a grown-up life?!” Of course, it is a grown-up kinda life, filled with kiddy kibble and children’s droppings. It’s just that as the ePrince gets older, I realize that at some point my necessity to wipe poo and taxi kiddos all over tarnation will come to an end. I am not trying to rush things here. In fact I’m not all that certain that I want to change anything anytime soon. But opportunity has come a knockin’. Finally. And I am being given a chance to do something fulfilling and intellectual and active in the things I am so passionate about. I don’t want to jinx myself, so I will not say too much about what said opportunities are in the works right now.
I haven’t been sitting on my laurels wasting (waisting?!) away all of these years. But the work I have been doing has seemed invisible. After all, I do not get a fabulously large paycheck for the endeavors I’ve been whiling away with. I do not have a clamoring professional life balanced against my family life doing fantastically wonderful things. I’ve just been plugging away, doing what I do and trying to do it to the best of my ability. I have been unwilling to work soulless jobs – and fortunate enough to be able to make that personal choice. Nevertheless I began to feel like I was wasting my time. And some of my oldest – longest loveys began to think this too. There has been, of late, a recent paradigm shift in the this faction of lovey’s unflinching support for my “hiding out.” Some people thought I was too damn smart, had pulled myself too far away from my trashy origins to be stuck at home chasing children rather than changing the world; and recently, they became quite vocal in saying so.
But the really great thing about this opportunity is that it forced me to revamp my résumé. In the revamping stage I needed to take stock of all that I’ve been doing for the last decade. And dammit, I’ve been doing a lot. The other thing I needed to do was enlist the aid of friends and loveys to recommend me for the opportunity. And this is the activity that I strongly urge anyone who is not feeling so jazzed about their situation to do, ask your loveys for letters of recommendations about you. What I learned about myself was so great, and what people said to me and about me was also such a fabulous reminder of all the things I’ve actually accomplished of late. The things I read about myself made me start to see me as reflected in the ideology and opinions of the people around me.